i'm losing something

Hey sunshine..where are you today..it's so dark from mornin'...i cant find ur warm as usual..i cant see the shadow of your glow..why it turns to dark today...
It's okay if this dark didnt change to grey..but at the middle you show yourself to another people..why not me?? hellooooow...i'm here..you know, i'm so begging of your shine till i keep trying again and again recording my voice and singing..i hope u'll remember me as one of your hillarious fans..eventhough the record is failed..me..keep to texting you..but every hours i'm check my phone..the details always same..waiting for delivery..geez...till now waiting for delivery..helllowwww..i've seen you used your BeBe..so why my message isnt delivered..
i'm worried honey..but you dont give a damn..
Yepp..it similar like i'm not one of your priority..that you should take care of...and i understand, i dont want to force anything to you, i dont want to tamed your heart..YOUR HEART IS YOURS..but you already have a part in my heart..so if u asked, what i fell..it's hurt..it's hurt..it's sad..so sad..i'm sore now, and i need your shine to recover me a bit..but i didnt found it..ME..LOSING YOU..me..thinking of you..haha..it turns to real right? about diane birch - nothing but a miracle?? i'm starting like her situation..i dont know how you are, how you feels...saddddddddddddddd darlgul :'(...my heart my mind like one of Kate Perry's song : LOST

Have you ever been so lost
Known the way and still so lost
Another night waiting for someone to take me home
Have you ever been so lost

Is there a light
Is there a light
At the end of the road
I'm pushing everyone away
‘Cause I can't feel this anymore
Can't feel this anymore

At Least I'm Known For Something

New Found Glory - At Least I'm Known For Something

I'm in and out of conversation
It's hard to keep my attention locked down
So don't take offence to anything i say
I tried so hard to keep you coming back my way
But you don't know the half and the one to blame for it

Cause I'm best known for failure
Best known for giving up
There's nothing that I can say that can matter that can matter enough
Cause I'm best known for failure (hey)
Best known for giving up (hey)
There's nothing that I can say that can matter that can matter enough
I've figured out my situation
I am an endless source of useless information
Give me bad news 'cause it's already been expected
I let my front down
And i know i will regret it
But you don't know the half and the one to blame for it

Cause I'm best known for failure
Best known for giving up
There's nothing that I can say that can matter that can matter enough
Cause I'm best known for failure (hey)
Best known for giving up (hey)
There's nothing that I can say that can matter that can matter enough

Lets get down to business now
I'm saving myself the trouble in the end
So lets get down to business now
I'm saving myself the trouble in the end
(Saving myself the trouble)
But you don't know the half and the one to blame for it

(hey) Cause I'm best known for failure (hey)
Best known for giving up (hey)
There's nothing that I can say that can matter

I'm the one to blame for this
Yes I'm the one to blame

Best known for failure
Best known for giving up
There's nothing I can say that can matter
That can matter enough 

Malammm Bloggers! pasti lg liat bola..hahah..ya same as gue yang ngetik ini ditengah anak - anak kosan yang hebring bgt di kamar gue nonton bola GOOOOLLL..hahhaha..
at least i'm known for SOMETHING
what is that? yeppp..bahwa dengan dia pun i cannot expect a lot from him..hmm..maybe he try to back off slowly from me now..yeahhh....sebenarnya gak mau sok tau :( tapi gue ngerasa kalau ada yang berubah dan gue takut kalau dia berubah..karena gw mulai kangen dia..hahahha.jadi SOMETHING nya apa nihhh???
hahha..somethignya ----> gue sudah mengakui dia di hati gue tapi gue juga meragukan gue di hati dia..jadi galau sendiri deh..hahaha.ah ane lg galauuuu..tugas banyakkk..ini nih yang gw tkutin dr htsan terlalu dlm..KETERGANTUNGAN :'( where are you...i need you... 

dia namanya monsjel :D

malam fellas!!
hari ini gue mau cerita sedikit..dari kemarin gak cerita cerita soalnya.hahahaha
gue punya temen yang gue rasa deket+nyaman+ but as a friend loh yaaaaa..hehehe..
namanya monsjel..karena dia panggil gue monsta..hahaha
WHY monsjel?? karena dia jeli = ganggang = alge..karena namanya alge kusuma
WHY monsta?? karena katenye die suka bgt liat foto gue pake jaket ayam :pd:
hahahaahah..

pasti lo semua bingung kan inti dari gue buat blog ini apa (y)
NONE lahhh..gue cuma lagi agak sedikit beteee sama diaaa..huh huh HUH
karena dia rese..karena dia selalu ngatain gue ayam..selalu bilang mati sekalian..selalu bilang gue mba..selalu cenga cengo kl lg ngomong ma gue..selalu bawel ngingetin gue minum obat ato makan..karena dia selalu ada beri gue sedikit tawa dari hari2 gue yang akhir2 ini sangat suraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam :'(..hahahhaah

oya lupa..gue rasa dia naksir pocong karena suka kirim gambar pocong..hahahahaha..lucu ya..lucu..semoga dia tetep jadi monsjel banteng yang suka ngebenerin lagu dan berambisi sebagai musisi..makasih Allah for give me one new besties again in my life :-*...luckily him, i think he got my respect for sure..alge jeeeyekkk :p